I wasn't planning on loving my course. I was sure of loving the prestige of it. And the premise of a degree from the only university I've ever considered.

So I don't love my course. So what?
The worst part is, a lot of people don't seem to think it's what I want.
Then again, I recall my Indonesian teacher going, 'Medicine? I thought you'd want to do something involving Economics.'
Made me think, 'WHAT, AREN'T I GOOD ENOUGH FOR MEDICINE?' Well I wasn't, yes. But thing is, I represented myself as this economics-adoring fggt, down to my detailed study topic. Let's also remember this teacher most probably thought I was a lesbian also.

So let's discuss my options.
Biomed/Science: Hours, Work and there will always be the Asian kid who is smarter than you.
Dammit, that sums up every degree.
And Biomed is not an option now anyway.

Commerce had been good to me. Commerce has been too good to me. I owe Commerce a lot.

I like the idea of it. The Corporate Goddess, with drive and passion and focus. The three things I say I have, yet lack the most.

The pro/con method gives Commerce a solid win.
But then there is a matter of majors and a Study Plan which now is more non-existant than chaotic.

Fully understand that I was distracted and unattentive, and too elsewhere to be able to show interest in the content.

I've been thinking about this a lot though.
Before results decided to smite my singular basket of eggs.

Possibility of being part of my own Grey's Anatomy cast ensemble is lost.
So what now?

Why can't I fall in love with academia.
(Seem to manage fine with lethargy and procrastination.)